Dear @kuwaiti. I'm back again to drop you some suggestions as I see you need some guidance here.
First of all, this content should have been posted in Self Improvement community as it is about how to be a better person. I left you some newbie guides a few days ago in my previous comment here. Please read it and try to find the right community next time.
I also see you are not replying to comments at all, you have one single comment made to me and that was because you could not access the platform. I need to remind you, that replying to comments is a way of appreciation to those who've spent their time to read your post and leave a comment.
Also I see you're not following anyone and not engaging with anyone on the chain, yet, this is your 8th post. Hive is a social platform and without engagement, you won't get anywhere. So it is in your best interest to start engaging and replying to comments.