Hi sir @anomadsoul, I really enjoy what you write from your heart in this post. Very exciting. I note When your grandmother says something "if it is yours, it yours or it will be yours, if it is not yours it will not be yours although you do strong efforts to have it. In my thought that is destiny, and this we cannot digest with our reason and feeling, there is great power and as far as I understand it is the power of God.
Hopefully your hope to meet her will be the destiny to be with her. Greeting and blessing.