Doing what you think is expected of you is exhausting (which got pretty clear), but fighting your own thoughts and believes even more, even though you know it's for the better.
Funny that you bring up psilocin. I haven't seen the documentary, but my GP told me about studies around it and that the results are pretty promising. Not sure if I'm brave enough to use it, but I believe they can play a important part in neural rewiring.
Thank you for your support, I really appreciate it:)