Hey @m31 !
So glad to read again from you.
I have not tried removing the pressure off my back. I should have tried, knowing that it will be much easier for creative stimulation to come. Part of me has been way to accustomed to conform with other's expectation which only causes me to forget about freedom.
Like ayn rand said, freedom is to depend on nothing, to expect nothing and to ask nothing. I believe by having that mindset back there will be more room to create something new and thrive.
Cheers !