Thinking about the things that terrify me makes me feel nervous.
Facing these worst fears, in reality, can be so difficult.
I always thought my fears were things like monsters, clowns, and the dark. So I tried to avoid these things that terrified me and felt safe when I did.
But as I grew older, I realized that my true fears weren't these things. They were the things I couldn't see but I felt. The things that lived inside my heart that couldn't be forgotten and made my blood run cold.
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FAILURE
I never thought I was afraid of failure.
But the very thought of failure tears me apart. The thought of amounting to nothing. The idea of having no home, no job, no real life, ending up nowhere.
The thought of not being able to build my own family, and lead the world I long to lead.
Every second of my life, this fear terrorizes me. Eats me up. Rips up my insides and pulls apart parts of my brain.
I understand failure is inevitable. I acknowledge that failure is necessary for growth. But for me, it's hard. I don’t want to be a failure. No one does anyway.
LOSING MY LOVED ONE
The feelings of having a shattered broken heart, getting to know that the very person I love is gone, living in a world where no one else is even remotely associated with me, a world where I am all alone, and there’s no way out of it, a world where the people I love and those who once loved me, just don’t exist, and losing all memories spent together, are what scares my heart.
It makes me feel lost, confused, and lonely. I would never wish to experience this.
GIVING UP
This is probably one of the scariest for me.
Being someone who has gotten so close to giving up, I know how easy it is to reach that point where you feel like nothing is worth it anymore, a point where the pain just seems so unbearable and you just need to make it stop.
I know giving up is not the answer so I'll say to myself
I’m stronger. I’m happier. I’m not as weak as before. I’m learning, and I’m living. I’m surviving. I’m thriving. I’m trying my best to live, and I’d like to say I’m grateful for every second I have here
But what happens if this fades?
If it leaves me behind, with no tracks whatsoever. What do I do then?
What happens if it gets too tough again?
If the whole world decides to go against me?
If I’m just not strong enough?
Do I fall back in?
Will I fall back in too deep?
Will I give up?
I don’t want to.
So that's why giving up scares me a lot.
Knowing that all these are my fears, I will always work so hard to prevent them from happening. I wont let this fear stop me from growing and achieving my goals, because they now inspire me to be stronger and more aware.
This is beautiful dear friend. I'm glad that your fears have become a source of inspiration, spurring you to work harder so as to avoid failure. Nice one. Cheers 🥂 ❤️
Thank you so much for reading.
Failure is inevitable. You can't be good at everything and there are factors you can't control, that will cause failure. You'll learn to accept failure in time, learn from them and do better next time.
Losing a loved one is also inevitable as no one lives forever. It hurts like hell, but what can you do?
We can't definitely do anything because it's a part of life and human experience.
Thanks for reading and commenting.
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Truth is, most of our fears motivate us without our knowledge because we always try to work hard to avoid them, an example is being poor. No one wants to be poor and that fear drives us to do better everyday.
You're absolutely right, thanks for reading.
You’re welcome
Yes dear.
Do not let those fears stop you, yes they are inevitable but...
They shouldn't stop you, they should motivate you and I so much believe in what you can do.
Thank you so much for always believing in me.
Am grateful.