Oh I'm so sorry to hear what you had to go through, it's normal to feel lost after such a long relationship. Doing things you like and keeping busy is very helpful but while you do this you also have to grieve, it's not easy to stop thinking about the problem because at some point the problem comes back and overwhelms you enormously. It really is an opportunity for self-discovery, cheer up you can do it all, surely you have overcome more complicated things in your life, I wish you the best for this year.
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Totally, we need to acknowledge our emotions and just let them be. It's okay to feel sad, cry and grieve. 💚 Thank you for the kind words.