Life is blurring out slowly in front of my eyes. I don't know the exact reason but I feel like I'm aging and seeing my own life from afar to unfold, roll on, and blur out!
I sometimes wonder if I have become a stranger to my life if I'm driving it anymore. And the scary part is I do not find myself in the driving seat with the wheel; there's no one; the car is rolling on its own and maybe will crash or go on—I don't know!!
My son is growing up so fast. Yes, that's him packing from a watch tower of a theme park we recently visited. When I see him, I feel that the time is near when this world will not need me anymore but him. He will grow up and move on, and we must find our own way.
People say I'm getting crazy too early as I'm overthinking and predicting too much. I know, they are not wrong. There is still time. But on the other hand, I know time is ticking. My youthful years are gone, I don't feel like myself anymore but a lot different. Maybe because of stress, maybe because of health issues but I can't feel the energy, the flow I had in myself anymore.
Now, I usually don't share these crazy feelings with anyone anymore but with the birds and flowers!
Nature is the only companion that listens silently, with no complaints, no judging, but listens. I'm at such an age that it's becoming hard to build any new friendships, my friends are all busy with their lives, and me too. Days are going too fast, and the years too.
Probably because of the pressure of the new year, it's getting hard to get these things out of my head. Life is getting blurry just like the photos.
Weeks ago, when we visited a local theme park I took these photos. The day was bright and beautiful. The flowers of the park and the bird's chirping healed me a little. And my son had a lot of fun.
After spending the day, when we came back he fell asleep on my shoulder. The day was closing, I was seeing the sunset from my window, and how it was getting dark. And this is exactly how I feel about my life. What a paradox!
I understand perfectly how you feel, I have been through what you say; time goes by so fast, and our children grow in an impressive way, that is why we must treasure every moment of every day, as you say, they grow and need to make their own way.
Don't worry about the passage of time, enjoy every moment
Have a beautiful dayHello dear friend @rem-steem
That's what I'm trying to focus on - to enjoy the current moments and stay away from all thoughts.
Thanks for your motivation.