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You did well by trying to always raise conversations
Once I see people who don’t know how to converse, it makes me feel like I’m forcing myself on them so I don’t bother to move forward but I may be wrong cos they may be very sad and not able to talk much

I find it hard to start conversations in general. I definitely get trying to be positive when you feel like everything around you is falling apart as well. It can be hard.

Right? Many people like to have company when things are hard but I prefer to be by myself, even though I like people. It's easier to face my problems when I don't need to repeat them over and over