Last night I went with Mina to get some dinner and actually to listen to some music but we don’t have luck and it’s always something so we booked restaurant where there was no music I mean live artist singer, but it was a nice restaurant so we really ate good And we talked like we couldn’t eat because of how much we were talking and I just found out that she was hanging out with my boyfriend and they were talking about me and what’s going on with me. What are my thoughts? What is my path? Why am I sometimes closed? Why am I sometimes open like they talked about everything and about engagement things, but literally everything they talked.
I was in a state of disbelief like why were people talking about me and why is he so serious about me? I always judge myself and I always feel so bad when I do something because that’s me. I am a weird person and I know that everybody knows that but I do feel a lot of times that I’m not acceptable as I am-that weird person and it’s really hard for me to digest the thing that he’s talking about an engagement with my friend and I’m here what if he doesn’t like me anymore because I was too shy I have a social problem with people and he just don’t get it and I do think that I look weird like I’m mean but I’m just super shy and social anxiety is on a highest and I judge myself too much and on the other hand I do feel loved oh my God such a weird topic for a random dinner with my friend.
But my weekend on the other hand was super chill. We were just in the house all day watching a TV series and I was begging him to watch squid game because the new season was released and he didn’t watch first season and we were just in the house watching squid game. We finish the first season and we we are on a half of the second season and he actually liked it. I don’t know, he is really strict about movies but he liked it; it’s a good show but on the other hand we did get out of the house at a Saturday. We went to the local open market with fresh vegetables and all kind of things and there is a little I don’t hall/ don’t know how to say it where you can eat a fresh vegetables and everything. I was feeling really guilty for not bringing my camera because you feel like you are in a movie. It’s such a good vibe. We ate a pork, hot pork and wine and round tables were the mood and some sunflower, such a nice lunch after that we went for a good walk around The river and got back for some pancakes that I couldn’t finish. We went back home. He had some birthday dinner that he went and he was there for like 2 1/2 hours and I was home watching movie just getting my alone time and he went back and we were watching squid game again. We were watching until 4 AM but we finished and then next day we started the second season and I just went home because I meant for dinner with Mina.
I ordered some more goofy things and did you how my car looks after it
Hi, it’s me getting back to the gym. I feel so unattractive even though I am actually being -4 kg but I feel so I don’t know yucky I feel I eat so bad and I just don’t like my body so I hopefully will get back to it and feel better in my skin.