I can relate to you @ecelyam05. I am the eldest too with my two half siblings. We, as the eldest we really tried our best to give our family what they need.
Sometimes if I am not in a good mood going to the seashore can be of great help as well like yours. I write something in the sand too.
Take care and sending my virtual hugs and love 💖
Appreciated, sometimes we feel pressure due to the situation where we at, but seeing how happy my siblings to my effort also feels good.
Stay strong always 🙂