It feels good when I start hovering through my drafts to pick up some random writings aka thoughts I have stored or left midway. It gives me a glance at different situations or thoughts that go through my mind at different times. So I am going to share some of them randomly from that storehouse.
Sometimes I feel nostalgic when I go through my old photos. How beautiful and precious those moments were! I search for a way back to those moments skipping the midway happenings that created distance. Maybe that drawer from Doraemon could help me out to do time travel, where can I find Doraemon? I have been searching from my cartoon days. At that time was so easy to plan with Doraemon. I was like, "If I get Doraemon, I won't be doing the dumb things nobita did, I would use this gadget in this way, will be doing this with that one, bla bla bla." Shit, I didn't get Doraemon even after so many years.
This year I never felt that I needed to be loved by someone in particular who will be just mine. I meant relationship, I was happy around with everything going normally with everyone. I was happy with the vast amount of friends with no leveling of the close or distant friend, I put preferences as much as they have given, nor did I expect something bigger from someone nor did I give to someone. That's how it went and I was happy with that too, it feels amazing. No massive chest pain there, hehehe.
Is it mandatory to have someone all the time? This is like a feeling that shouldn't be made too cheap to spend on anyone you bump into. We must reserve that special feeling for the special people and I am sure I haven't bumped into anyone this year who could be my special person. Let's wait for 2022 if I find any.
Sometimes I feel like testing to disappear all of a sudden without any hint or any clue to my whereabouts. Isn't it amazing? Deactivating the social media accounts, turning off the sim cards, and leaving for somewhere far from here, where no one knows you. Maybe a couple of days is enough to have that feel. Obviously, you can't do that with your family but at least with others. Because in the end, you would have very few people left to be concerned about you apart from your family.
Well, I will be trying this soon enough to explore myself in my way, getting away from my comfort zones, maybe traveling somewhere alone, maybe trying to meet some new people. So many things go through my mind, I don't even know whether I would be able to fulfill them or not. But one thing I know is that planning these costs me nothing and I would be ready to execute them if I get any chance to grab them.
The last part is to seek something from you guys.
For some reason, I am feeling like the issue of my sleeping cycle is turning into a disaster for the last few weeks. Normally, I sleep late at night, but for the last few weeks, the schedule has become too late. I am feeling like I'm drowning deep into the cycle. I find comfort in these hours but deep down I am sinking into it, more than I have planned or my body could adjust. One friend of mine noticed this and warned me about this habit of mine and warned me too. Any tips or advice to come back from this cycle? How can I adjust my sleeping hours back to normal?
I am none to advise as I myself have a ridiculous sleeping hour. But, I can share what's up with me now. When I excessively exhaust myself, I get tired easily and I guess that's for every human being. You just need to learn what exhausts you the most. Recently, I am going out and working in a volunteer space from 8-8, so when I finally reach home at 10, I just grab a bite and start to write posts, but interestingly I fall asleep without even knowing how did I actually. This is when I realized that, "ah! my body was tired!"
I have a friend of mine, he has a sleeping problem too. But, about him, I feel that he never exhausts himself too much. Like in that 8-8, I may be working nonstop but he will be idling around, taking a gap, not physically working but observing. So, I realized he is less likely to fall asleep. But, again when he plays football, he sleeps too early because his body is drained heavily.
I feel it is all about working efficiently to exhaust yourself to sleep. By doing so, you might throw your body at a routine and then follow it accordingly. I am doing that right now, and I use this technique from time to time.
I fall on the criteria of your friend. I stay at home the whole day and as of going out, that's after 8 pm, hanging around with friends and that too on the bike so no scope of getting exhausted.
Yeah, that's a valid reason, have seen that exhausting thing working for me too. But in my daily life, I got nothing to get exhausted.
Gotta find something. Thanks a lot for pointing out this one.
This question really needs the intervention of a good therapist but then let me give myself a try to answer it because at times I find myself in such situation and the only way I fix it is not doing those things I do that keeps me up and unable to sleep. Also you could see a doctor you know.
Doctor suggested me once, that I should stay away from electronic devices at night, that's when I went to do a checkup for my eyes.
But staying away from electronic devices is kinda hard. I think I should rearrange my whole day activity in a new way.
I am more of myself most of the time
I am more of just believing myself and standing alone. I don't believe in having people or someone. I just believe sustainability in oneself can be found and does not need to depend on others
Yeah true, but sometimes we tend to feel loved or love someone.
Depending on no one is really a great virtue, I am trying to be on my way too.
Btw Thank You for stopping by and sharing your opinion.