The endless battle with the evil inside me.

in BDCommunity3 years ago

There's a hidden dragon inside me, it's in the underground. I don't let it come outward. You can guess why? Yes, it waits to burn the whole world, inside and out. I can feel the warmth, I sometimes can see the fire. I have to feed the dragon and let it come to terms because I don't have any pullback.

It's an agony to hide it from the outside world. I wish I could let it go...

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All this turned on from the very beginning. When I came to understand myself, I noticed I'm a revenger. I never let anyone go without paying, without harming me. I make them pay actively or passively, mostly passively. This is so subtle in me, people usually don't notice this evil inside me.

The nature of humans is, to make others feel the way we feel. I take this too literally. I usually don't set the fire but lit the blue flame everywhere. Sometimes it burns a relationship, sometimes the other's heart, it radiates me inside so bad, I can feel the twilight in me.

I wish I could let the dragon fly and never let it succeed. But I know how trivial I'm, it will come, take over me, and will continue to ruin me. I find it more convenient to let it settle inside and keep it safe there. It's better to let it go rather than keeping it hidden.

But I know, the pain to hide it.

I plot to let others fall into traps in my head. Usually, I don't execute the plan but feel good inside to imagine the whole thing. I think the evil things about others. I let them suffer in my dreams. But all this makes my heart shady inside. I feel the distress.

However, the more I'm aging the better I understand that the truth is there's no joy in becoming the purpose of others' pain.

But the imagined dragon will be there...it will continue to burn me inside and out.

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We humans all have evil inside of us from birth and the sooner we take it the better for everyone else around us. Lovely writing

That's true. Thanks for your appreciation.

Always a pleasure 😊

An interesting read. I can relate to some extent because my dragon operates the same way, subtle but very fierce. We all should learn to tame our dragon, or at least negotiate with it by knowing what it wants and satisfying its need when necessary.

And I can relate to the negotiation part. Hahaha... I used to feel ashamed but knowing everyone has their own dragon made me feel comfortable talking about it.
Thanks for sharing your words.

Ohh this is good. The imagined dragon will always be there. And we will always try to keep it tamed.

That's our credibility as a human.
Btw, nice to meet you.

Nice to meet you too! 😊

It's must be really hard to control the demon inside of you. But I hope you keep containing it. Just like you said, there's no joy in being the cause of pain to others.

It's a struggle but I learned to do it successfully. You may rate me 8 or probably more out of 10 as a person. But I know what's going on inside me. Hahaha...
Don't get scared, I don't burn.

I know, even if you do, you won't burn a friend right?😍😅

Yeah, sure. :)

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I really like reading stories like this. How are you today.

I'm fine. Thanks for reading.

You're welcome friend

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