Well, I do present a journey, and 3-4 ways to experience it ... through words, through pictures, through music, and for German and sometimes Russian speakers, the journey through music has the layer of storytelling as well ... and sometimes I will compose a piece to include here for a fifth layer .... so, I see that you indeed have traveled with me, and although I do not desire for you to be melancholy, you did pick up, accurately, just how I felt!
My mood does not have so much to do with autumn, though. Autumn and winter are my two favorite seasons, although this year summer gave both a run for their money in terms of joys ... but the music I select really does connect with my mood. Sviridov is my Russian go-to for the schwer parts that require endurance in my life, and Schubert can go either way but famously leans toward winter. I chose my favorite aria from Strauss for a happy ending ... but come back next week ... Gretchaninov's "Gladsome Light" shall be up for consideration musically, and in pictures ... still light and shade, but leaning into the light!
Now, about making five posts ... nein ... there is a method to my long-form madness. Much of my weekly writing is text, and gives readers in other languages beside English little opportunity to enjoy. Yet here, there is something for everyone. You picked up my feelings through music, but someone else might have picked up different feelings and impressions through the pictures I took and chose to present. Others will read deeply as their primary way, and some will connect with two or more modes, including the total experience, because a 30-minute read time means one can play all the music while reading along.
To choose between the lyrics and the music would certainly not do justice to your work. For me, however, all of your lyrical “pointing fingers” are directed towards the music, which thus gains in importance.
That is the advantage you have as a native German speaker ... you can know that everything truly does come out from the music. Specifically, however, because I am not a native speaker, what you also sense is the work I have to do toward understanding. My favorite musician, Kurt Möll, tended to "lean" just a little on something that is especially important in any lyric, and when a voice that huge and expressive does that, it gets past the language barrier for an active mind. In that sense, the great professor really is my teacher, because off I have gone on improving my German again and reading in German history over centuries, and finding translations of whole librettos in as many as four languages to grasp something in a character that most other singers could not express in a single song or aria -- and finding general and even eternal wisdom put down in this music even as it is expressed in my own beloved Negro Spiritual -- and reconsidering all the music I know in light of this.
So, there is an external walking around after an internal walking around ... and as Herr Möll himself said, much of the work of the artist is to make the internal, external ... so I discover the music, and manifest the internal walking around of my thoughts about it in this way.