The night was still and silent but turmoil only amplified my fears. Thoughts and unknowns were in my head like a whirlwind that never ends. Why do I struggle so hard? Why do my aspirations constantly appear so distant that I cannot reach them, alongside that stars do to me? The night wrapped in a thick silence was made richer only by the ticking of the clock that couldn't help but remind me that time kept on going.
Simon & Garfunkel ~ The Sound of Silence [Youtube]
I am a person often about fiercely unattainable and indecisive goals. Every movement I make feels like an increase in gravity as if the whole universe is nothing but a multitude of barriers that prevent me from moving forward. I am exhausted, fgavled to and fro, like a ship in the open sea that is unable to find its harbor.
That time, when I was about to collapse under my tiredness, I heard a tiny voice in my heart say, "Let it be." Although the voice is very simple the message that carries a deeper meaning is like a lockers that has been unlocated. It's not everything to be struggled through. Sometimes we should just let things go, allowing life to move in ways we might not fully understand.
I peer at the night sky and see the many stars glittering there. The stars keep on gleaming quietly in spite of the surrounding of the dim darkness. The light breeze refreshes my memory that acceptance is the form of wisdom that is often marginalized. There are times when the best thing to do is to accept, not fight, and relate to oneself so that growth becomes a possibility.
When the storm came, I had no way of stopping it. What I did was seek shelter, and I stood there, waiting for it to pass. And such is life, there are so many things going on that we have no power over and sometimes being detached is the truest form of strength we can possess.
My perspective on pain changed the moment I understood that it was not my adversary. Quite on the contrary, it is our faithful mentor that constantly reminds us that happiness is not based on possession, but on appreciating moment to moment, even it is the hardest. Imperfection is in the background of the tune of our life, and we wouldn’t be alive if we tried to struggle away from it.
That night, I chose to release. Not as in the case of defeat but I made the decision to put my ego to the side and allow the universe to take full control. I didn't interfere with and just allowed time and life to be. I suddenly realized that my burden became lighter by what seemed like me giving up that weighed me down.
The following morning, when the sun came up, it felt like everything was different. The world wasn't pain free, but it was illuminated. The roadblocks that at first appeared to be a hindrance became the door to a new possibility, to stand up instead of giving up even if my feet are dragging. I started to think that life is not the fastest racer, but the one who welcomes every moment with an honest heart.
I came across people, who too had their burdens to bear, they too had their situations. But, none of them gave up. While they grinned at me as if it was only to show off their good mood, their eyes were murmuring stories of pain and sorrow. I had come to see that more than the dreadful consequences in life, happen the interconnectedness that we have to each other to share, to survive, and to get on with it. Despite the road that unwinds, yet people walk along, which is an image that I fancy and thus is why I find a particular meaning in it.
Green Day ~ Boulevard of Broken Dreams [Youtube]
The beach was the place where I, that particular afternoon, came and looked at the sunset of the day. The sky was painted with a palette of beautiful colors that brought about such serenity and calmed my whole being. In that quiet, I felt as peaceful as never before. No rushing, no panic. And lo and behold, I got the notion that life is not about having everything at once. It is rather a question of being able to appreciate what is now, even if it is trivial. Also sometimes, all I have to do is stop and think positive about everything for a while.
By evening, I have no hesitation to keep silent. I give myself fully to it and accept, without worrying about what might or might not happen. In fact, I was so confident to the point of saying, "Whatever happens, I am going to be all right." That night I slept very comfortably, night did not pass without sweet and inspiring dreams giving me hope.
It dawned on me, life is not all about just accepting. Every now and then, we must prioritize choosing a path, we are clueless about, putting ourselves in a zone, which is away from the eye, yet we trust in the significance of the journey.
Morning came with a softer light, covering the hills with a different warmth than yesterday. I stood there, overlooking the world, that seemed to extend much farther, as if it were more lively. The path that I had once seen as a one-way street, now felt like a walk along that path even though I was fully aware that not everything would be sunshine and rainbows. But this time, I felt ready. Not with the power to suppress everything but with a brave face, with the strength to endure anything coming.
The more I walked, the more I seemed to get into a peaceful state which I had never felt anywhere but inside of myself. All that was hard to carry in my heart, all the dreams that did not come true, are now my part that I have learned patience, empathy as well as honesty. Life does not always give us what we want but often brings us what we need, not in the form of comforts but in the shape of life-changing lessons.
And yet, the beautiful and never-ending path lay ahead of me. Of course, there would be rainy days, there would be dark nights, there would be obstacles that I would have to face. Nevertheless, I comprehended now that each step, each second was not a separate thing: they all were parts of a universal journey, a quest for a deeper insight into life and myself. On the way, I also unlocked the understanding that letting go is not always synonymous with loss but instead, it is the road to the true freedom within ourselves.
While I was looking up the infinite sky, I found myself grinning. The stars which had been so distant before had now moved closer to us as if in a silent way to tell us that even in times of darkness there is always some light if we are patient enough to wait for it.
I lifted my feet, stepping forward with new confidence, not to wrestle with the world, but rather to travel with it, not only in its glory but in its defaced form as well. I know now that life is precious just by being itself and I am fully prepared to treat it as a cause for great fun.
~ Love Seha76
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Letting go indeed isn't synonymous with loosing although can be made to look like that if you don't see it from the right perspective
Life's ambition is always overwhelming and seems distant but one thing I've come to understand in life is that just like you said, patience and time solves all puzzles if you are on the right path
So true! Thank you for the great appreciation, man.
You're welcome