Without a purpose (telos) my life feels like torture... i feel responsible now for messing up progress on hive telos eos and starting a war in europe
I feel like i am working through some terrible past life karma
I just need my brain to feel normal but decade+ of opiate abuse left me feeling super depressed and overwhelmed and frustragious
I guess I'm addicted to chicken too. For this, I have to go deep into the things I experienced in my childhood.
Maybe you could consider psychotherapy about that too.