I'd say be kind to yourself - eliminating distraction and being truly present is damn hard. Most people spend years of their lives working on it and still find it very difficult.
if there are distractions that I truly could eliminate or at least suppress and then give excuses instead, it's because deep down, I really want to be distracted.
I like this argument a lot. More often, we just say "oh my thoughts are distracting", so thanks for reminding us to look further at why we're so easy to distract. :)
We're in a pretty distracting world. Better to be gentle on myself, really.
Needed it myself! You're welcome.