Ant there's this dull ache in my bones that insists there's little point in it all if we're just going to get sick and die anyway
That's the whole point, I think :) If we were gonna be around till the end of time, then there'd be little point. But you know all that already.
Sometimes you need a moliday, but also a do-nothing day. Pushing things in dark corners only helps them grow sometimes. Sit with it (as I'm sure you are), but don't forget that your life is a beautiful gift. And I mean that. Every time I read you, I'm hit by a "these people are doing it right" vibe.
Every word of this is just beautiful. I love reading you. And I want sandwiches now. And ideally a nearby ocean. I'll go check Lidl, they might have some left. :)
Definitely not mutually exclusive! Molidays are us going nothing for a minute. It's a hard thing for us air signs to do!
I had this distinct, sharp feeling on the edge of the ocean yesterday that I'd see Dad again, or more be with him, but I had to stay here and finish this living first, like all the other livings that have been left gasping for air when their loved ones got around to their dying. I mean I knew that already, damn it, but it had to come to me like poetry first for me to let it in.
You are dead right, scus the pun - we are finite here, so may as well enjoy it.
Try the centre aisle - but I do hear they sell out fast.