I am sorry that this is actually partly a reply to your reply days ago, and partly a "post" because I don't have enough resource credit to make a real post.
I am glad that you were able to move on from your experience. I have imagined what it would be like if one day things would return to normal for me. And I find that logically I won't be able to come out from the shadow. But that's actually a farfetched imagination as I am still under surveillance and everything. Even meeting people online (e.g. you) have me worried.
It could be hard to understand why I write these events quite detailed as my daily. It began as some things happened which had me worried that I would be frame for something, not necessarily used (only) against me, after I told a supposed fellow refugee that I don't want to bring bad names to my people. It was not the first time, but it intensified after I told him.
It would also be hard to learn the full extent of what I experienced even after reading all my writings because I didn't write everything and didn't want to put everything bluntly. But it is gradually changing since I started my public daily. (but I don't write it daily)
A point to start could be this writing.
My daily could be found on GutHub.
Wanted to put the last entry here but not enough RC.
The last entry is this one