felt like it was less a matter of if than when
Gosh! It can't be good to live with such fears. You learn to cope, you become immune to it, and you don't realise the impact that environment has on you until you get away from it.
In 2020, with the clashes with police and paramilitaries, it was so much more intense
It was scary enough watching it from the television... because it was like what/ who/ where next...
Do you get the chance to escape for long holidays? Or are you into meditation or doing any grounding activities to keep you balanced? (if you know what I mean...:)
For real. You get used to it, almost numb to it but that doesn't go away even when the circumstances that caused it do. Talking to people who weren't there really opened my eyes to how different our perceptions of things were.
It was weird, at the time you were too busy being concerned with what to do next to be scared. That always came after, when you were trying to decompress and the full weight of what'd happened hit you. There was one march where we'd gotten word that a militia was waiting for us up ahead and they put out a call of "everyone with firearms to the front." At the time I was too worried about watching for potential threats to even think about the implications of that. Luckily it was bad info and nothing happened but jesusfuckingchrist.
I manage to make an escape every once in a while but it's never as often as one would like. Got a working one coming up this week :) Nature has always been my go to for grounding, mostly I hike and grow flowers.
It's a different life for sure! Just a matter of getting into action and doing what you gotta do at that moment... I agree that decompressing can be the hardest, and that's when being in nature is vital.
Hiking is awesome, and I'm happy that you have a break coming, even if it's still work.
and are you into growing/using herbs?
Work for me is taking photos and figuring out how to write something about them so it's nowhere near as onerous as it sounds.
I do a little bit with herbs, my partner does most of the growing/using herbs though. Going to be growing some stuff this year to make homemade fabric dyes but I'm not entirely sure what all else. Do you?
That's real fun, just dangerous locations.
I've never thought about making my fabric dyes. That's a brilliant idea. I do like growing herbs and do so even in limited spaces like when we were living on the narrowboat. However, we're temporarily staying with a friend, and I miss gardening.
My fav herbs to grow are rosemary, basil, oregano, and parsley. I always struggle with growing healthy coriander. I'm gonna look up the common herbs and colour for clothes dye😊