You hit the proverbial reset button. Based on experience I'd say that's the most difficult thing anyone can do, due to fear of the unknown. This fog describes things perfectly. Now look. Everything is calm. Everything is still. Everything is fresh. Nothing to be afraid of.
Getting there is the hardest part. But now nothing is bland or taken for granted, and every second counts.
Uh wow I never thought of my new experience like this.
Reset button.
Yes. This is why I feel like I am somehow a different me and I try to understand what I feel and why I feel it.
Last night as I looked myself in the mirror I had an a-ha moment: how on Earth did I had the courage to just go for it? And not only with Denmark, Germany, but also with the salon, the life choice that I made. Bold, brave and sometimes crazy decision making. On my own.
Look at all this stillness. Oh yes. When I observe this in nature it makes me realize how petty all ot my worries were and will be. I feel much more connected with a spiritual side of me. The part who knows that I am , just like you are, temporary on this blue dot. And that everything I am going through is just a journey. It makes me get out of my overthinking head and rebalance myself. Just like you run from the urban jungle and take yourself on a hill from where you can see the bigger perspective : that the Universe is bigger than what we think.
I feel that I am changing. But it feels like a change toward a version of myself I buried long time ago. It is definetely a scary process to start all over again. But is shows you what you are made of. And here I shall say that tough romanian cookie is an understatement and I am proud of this version of myself. The one who think she will do it all, without fear.
I wake up in gratitude every day. When I feel the demons of the past circling me around with sadness, regret, melancholy, I bring myself into the present. I am here because I brought myself here. Through faith and grit. Solo. And that is by any definition brave
Thank you 🤗
I'm becoming, bored; unfulfilled. Been thinking about hitting that reset button, again. Unsure where I want to take myself though. Sometimes I think I use that button too much. You said there's a version you buried. That clicked with me. Might have to dig up my grave to see what remains. Something's missing. Not sure what yet.
I was away from here for awhile again so trying to get caught up with everyone. You're in a good place both physically and mentally by the sounds of it; and proud, as you should be. Good to see.
I see where you are coming from and I can understand it so well.
I think that hardships can change you. The kind of hardships that are like a storm for your soul. You know those people who at a certain point, something clicked for them and they were never the same again? I feel this might be a possibility for all of us. The graves we have been digging for the better version of ourselves we did not believe in. I never knew how strong I can be until life brought me to my knees. I did not know my heart can still heal after having a painful heartbreak. After a while, I can look upon the older me...and somehow that makes me dig and rediscover myself. It is odd. You reflect on the old you and this makes you get to the new-hidden version of yourself.
Change is good. I think it is so easy to get into a rut. And do what you always did. No matter if it implies pain or pleasure.
People suffer in silence. While they post stories , reels and shorts. I know it. Because just like everybody else I am human.
But I think that it is worth sitting with your own pain, boredom, existential dread. Because it tells a story. About who you forgot to be. And just like in the fog....it takes extra awareness to rediscover yourself.
I am in a better place. I now compare myself to the one I was yesterday. It is better. I won't lie and pretend I am super completely healed. I am on the journey. But aren't we all?
I suprised myself the other days when an idea about possibly having a family one day, a life where Home feels like a place I would like to have with someone, popped into my mind. I often saw myself alone. I take it as a good sign, that I am healing emotionally. I think the Universe will always give us what we need in order to be better. I think I needed all I had been through in order to get to this version of me now, who speaks to you and to myself in the same time. Odd. Such is life.
Stay strong, we are all on a journey.
No need. We all have scars. They add character. Over time I think we all get better at treating our wounds.
lol.. No clue why I like speaking in metaphors so much.