The name of the business, the name I gave my comp[any, is something I'm prevented to mention. I know where the character works now, I even know where he lives and have had (in the past) the thought of dealing with things in my own way, but I've not allowed myself to think that way for long; that way lies madness, or worse.
Laying down in a ball is fine, sometimes you need to defence curl
I did a little of this, but it's really not my style; laying down and pretending to be dead.
I ended up uncurling and having a think which led me to action and it's that action that helped me rebuild. Now, yeah I'm fine. I can talk about the situation philosophically and without that feeling of...well, of emptiness and breathlessness. It was a terrible, life-changing moment, but I survived.