It's hard to explain it but beer is therapy. Sometimes you don't even need to talk to anybody about the things bothering you, you simply just sit quietly with a bottle of beer and "fix yourself".
I've barely had any sleep since last night because my dogs decided to be assholes. Their demons really took full control as they let loose last night, barking and voicing out their self imposed discomfort from shitting in their cage.
My wife tells me to take it easy on them because they're just dogs being dogs. She's right about that, they are just dogs and while they ruined a part of my night, the reason for my insomnia wasn't the dogs.
One thing I do unconsciously is sleep away my problems that are beyond my control. I try not to let issues pervade my mind by latching on to the earliest signs of sleep and hit the sack.
I don't do it consciously because I'm not really in tune with my emotions but on close introspection, I find that it's something I do. For the most part it works because most of the problems I try to sleep away are problems that are largely beyond my control.
It is a strange sleeping habit that I've developed over the years to cope with the rigours of life. It tends to interfere with other aspects of my life but at the same time, it is a defence mechanism that my mind created to protect me from the unknown.
Last night, I latched on to the first sign of sleep. I took a bath and wrapped myself with the duvet.
What would have been a sweet escape from my thoughts turned into a nightmare because the puppies wouldn't shut up. They were protesting because they shit inside their cage.
Sometimes around 1am, my wife did her best to fix the issue but the dogs had made a bigger mess than she was aware of. So due to all the noise, I cut short my sleep and went to address the problem.
After fixing the issue that included taking one of the puppies out to handle his business, insomnia attacked. All the thoughts I was avoiding came crashing down on me as I did my utmost to force sleep.
Many of the thoughts and worries that pervaded my mind were about things I can't control. I was thinking about all the traveling and some of the sales I'm yet to complete.
These thoughts constantly rang in my head throughout the wee hours of the morning. Inevitably taking away any hope of sleep, leaving me with a slight headache to boot.
All I can do now is drink a bottle of beer in the morning. Not ideal but as I drink it and draf this publication, I feel a weight being lifted off my shoulder. If that's not therapy, I don't know what is.
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Oof, insomnia is a bitch. Ive suffered from it off and on through my years. Worse when i was younger. Melatonin helped me, didnt work for everyone, but in my case, after a while…i didnt even need to take the melatonin, i just needed it near me. If it was near/easy to get, i would think, ‘well the melatonin is right there…dont need it now…but if i do i can just go get it. Somehow just knowing i had it, relieved the fear that i was going to have a night of mind wrenching insomnia.
Lol, now id like to mention a thought about dopamine release, basically that thought about the melatonin being near, elicited a chemical reaction that allowed me to sleep. Finding ways to hack into the chemical releases that are natural and health based has become a key for me lately.
Hacking or retraining my brain is something that interests me greatly.
Ive tricked my brain into enjoying cleaning and staying organized, my wife is pumped that i seem to love washing dishes. ‘I dont’. But i have a song i sing when i wash the dishes, it is funny and fun and meaningful to me… so because i have linked it with washing dishes…now i have come to almost enjoy my dish washing sessions.
Lol, long response, but you triggered these thoughts so i want them out.
I guess, i mention all these little details so as to talk about the relief that 1 beer gave you. That weight being lifted from your shoulders, those are dopamines and other chemicals being released.
The trick is finding the thing that releases those chemicals to be grounded in joys.
I spent years talking about the relief a beer gave me when stressed about whatever thing. But that was a story in my case. An excuse to drink. My brain eventually linked beer with stress release. This was an issue in my existence.
Alcohol is one hellish cunt of a therapist, that bitch be going cray some days. I fired my booze therapist. I feel better for it now.
Ha ha… but dude, enjoy that morning relief beer… if it is truly just 1 😉
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Sorry about all these issues. Animals could be messy sometimes. I know your travel arrangement is part of that thinking. Have you made any progress in selling the car?
I'm very sorry that you have to face these issues. But I admire the fact that you can at least have a good sleep, even though it's unconsciously, sleep helps to keep the body at rest and relaxed and that can even help us get a good solution to our problems without much anxiety.
I hope you get help from your insomnia. Best wishes!
A bottle of beer to fix yourself when life's anxieties pressurize you, great. Your dogs must have wanted you to spend the night with them in their cage 🤣 but anyways take it easy on them
Having a bottle of beer to fix yourself is quiet fine if that will suicide your trouble. For your dogs you can sold them out, in other to have peace of mind.
There’s definitely a lot of clarity that comes with sitting there with a beer. The trouble is trying to make sure it doesn’t become a crutch! The stresses of life and the big things are indeed difficult man, I wish you well through the mental challenges ahead.