I will squeeze you and tell you that you should feel exactly whatever you are feeling.
Reading this made me so mad and sad. Having met you in person I can vouch for your warmth, intelligence, kindness, motivation to help your community, and a whole bunch of other things that I could splash in the face of that prejudiced ignoramus who never ordered your card. I know how much the negative experiences hurt, but I hope that you see yourself for the good and deserving person that you are, and won't internalize it.
Thanks corvidae. I'm more disappointed than pissed. It's a repeating behaviour and sometimes it gets to me no matter how much I try.
Disappointment. Yeah. I hear that. I'm sorry. It just fucking sucks, to say it straight up. The world is so full of wounded souls blindly taking their pain out on others.