Sorry, its the life of people in the creative industry. Your well could get dry. Another alternative is to come up with a product that you can sell and have little money coming your way.
It will give you back some of that sense of control. I have been working on fitness shirts I want to put for sale that are Christian-themed. I wish you luck all the same.
That's some expensive venture that'll give me anxiety. But yeah, things are going to start looking up soon enough.
If you could get people to want it then it will be all good