Hey, @galenkp.
Nope. Wasn't thinking about suicide at all. I was thinking more along the lines of close relationships being strained, but you said all is good, so as I said, I'm crazy. And I'm glad that's the case. :)
re: complaining
I wouldn't say it's wrong. As you said, life doesn't go as planned more than we like, and sometimes, being human, that affects us more at certain times when we might normally just power through.
However, I wasn't really getting that vibe from you as far as complaining goes. You being a little more reflective is part of it, but something else, too. You feeling the twists and turns of life a little more and then sharing it might be it. It's not like you don't do that normally—I guess I was just reading an uptick in it and wondered what might have happened.
At any rate, I'm glad I finally asked. I've been concerned for a while and I decided I should finally break the "bro code of silence" (my term for this) and ask. :) Never was all that good at that particular bro code, anyway, which I blame on my mother, since that's where the urge to know what's going on and then talk about it comes from. :)
I'm not one to play out my relationships on social media, or any where outside of any particular relationship to be honest, and so would never allude to any issues here, even if they existed. People may make assumptions due to the lack of particular content they may be used to seeing however perception isn't always reality.
I actually really appreciate the direct question and the place it comes from as it shows a sense of caring and interest that seems lacking in this world we live in. Especially between blokes who tend to just clam up and hold it all in. Like everyone I have a past and some of that past isn't all that nice and so I have to deal with it...I'm just as broken and fallible as the next person and sometimes it comes out here in some words I write.
I'll tell you one thing though, I need a break, some time away. I'm off camping for a few days in May and am looking forward to zoning out a little, breaking from routine and not having to work the brain-cells in my noggin as much. That's not too far away now so I'm looking forward to the detachment - I need it.
Thanks again for your concern and for having the care-factor to broach the subject.