Hello community greetings, let me vent, because if I do not do it these thoughts that overwhelm me can take control of my decisions, and everything would be over. Previously I made a post where my bad decisions, led my family to spend a lot of economic needs and this resulted in leaving my beautiful country, to try to cover the basic needs. At the beginning when I arrived in Peru, thank GOD, I was working sporadically, I even made plans to bring my family, but the reality is that my income was not enough, of ninety dollars a week, I sent half for debts and expenses in Venezuela and the rest was barely enough for my needs and barely enough for rent. Expectations were diminishing as jobs, my options became more and more limited and my hopes for a future where economic worries would be out of my mind were shrinking.
Hola comunidad un saludo, permítanme desahogarme, ya que si no lo hago estos pensamientos que me abruman pueden tomar el control de mis decisiones, y todo se acabaría. Anteriormente hice un post donde mis malas decisiones, llevaron a mi familia a pasar muchas necesidades económicas y esto trajo como consecuencia que saliera de mi bello país, para intentar cubrir las necesidades básicas. Al principio cuando llegue al Perú, gracias a DIOS, estuve trabajando esporádicamente, hasta realice planes para traerme a mi familia, pero la realidad es que mis ingresos no eran suficientes, de noventa dólares semanales, enviaba la mitad para las deudas y los gastos en Venezuela, el resto apenas me daba para mis necesidades y a duras penas el alquiler. Las expectativas fueron disminuyendo a medida que los empleos, mis opciones cada vez mas limitadas y mis esperanzas de un futuro donde la preocupación económica estuviera fuera de mi mente se achicaban.
Not giving up, since by October, November and December I had no job, nor money for rent, I started selling pastries and lemon juice, the first days I did not sell anything, then my Venezuelan compatriots, Pedro and Luis Castillo, who manufactured these foods gave me a place where I could make sales, there at least I managed to generate for food and rent, but there was nothing left to send to my family I thought again, so I thought about trying to make trading, to generate more income and send to my family.
No dándome por vencido, ya que para octubre, noviembre y diciembre no tenia empleo, ni dinero para el alquiler, empecé a vender pastelitos y jugo de papelón con limón, los primeros días no vendía nada, luego mis compatriotas venezolanos, Pedro y Luis Castillo, quienes fabricaban estos alimentos me dieron un puesto donde podía realizar las ventas, allí al menos logre generar para el alimento y para el alquiler, pero no quedaba para enviarle a mi familia pensé nuevamente, así que pensé en intentar realizar trading, para generar mas ingresos y enviarle a mi familia.
My options and my income were not many, I surfed the internet with a borrowed cell phone, observing many misleading offers and one of them was from a broker that offered 1500 dollars bonus without deposit, I got my friends Pedro and Luis excited to sign up on that site, after working throughout the month of November I tried to withdraw my earnings of almost a thousand dollars and the only thing they asked was to validate the account with a deposit of 10% of the profits, between the three of us we gathered a hundred dollars. After the deposit the small letters came out and my earnings were not such, the good thing is that I was able to withdraw our full deposit.
Mis opciones y mis ingresos no eran muchas, navegue por internet con un celular prestado, observando muchas ofertas engañosas y una de ellas era de un bróker que ofrecía 1500 dólares de bono sin deposito, entusiasme a mis amigos pedro y Luis a inscribirnos en ese sitio, después de trabajar durante todo el mes de noviembre intente retirar mis ganancias de casi mil dólares y lo único que pedían era que validara la cuenta con un deposito del 10% de las ganancias, entre los tres juntamos los cien dólares. Luego del deposito salieron las letras pequeñas y mis ganancias no eran tal, lo bueno es que pude retirar completo nuestro deposito.
All this gave me more confidence that I could take trading as a main source of income so I took the 30 dollars of my part of 100 and invested them in a regulated platform and managed to generate 500 dollars the first three weeks of last December, do not know how happy I was I withdrew 200 and sent them to my family, I withdrew for my expenses and 100 remained, to continue investing, but not everything would last, again a carelessness of mine I fell asleep and left several open operations, I lost the hundred dollars, I get depressed again. Then the memory of my family's faces gave me a new push to not fall into thoughts that consume life. GOD intervened again and I was called to work in Lima in a blacksmith project that would last two months, without resources as I could I got the ticket to move to the capital and GOD had a room with everything (bed with blankets and kitchen with utensils), is where I am now, I could send money to my family during that time of work, but I have almost three months without a job since the project is over and the other that supposedly would come out has not been given.
Todo esto me dio mas cofinancia, en que podía tomar al trading como fuente de ingreso principal así que tome los 30 dólares de mi parte de 100 y los invertí en una plataforma regulada y logre generar 500 dólares las primeras tres semanas del mes de diciembre pasado, no saben lo contento que estaba retire 200 y se los envié a mi familia, retire para mis gastos y quedaron 100, para seguir invirtiendo, pero no todo duraría, nuevamente un descuido mío me quede dormido y deje varias operaciones abiertas, perdí los cien dólares, me deprime nuevamente. Luego el recuerdo de las caras de mi familia me dio un nuevo empuje para no caer en pensamientos que consumen la vida. DIOS intervino nuevamente y me llamaron para trabajar en Lima en un proyecto de herrería que duraría dos meses, sin recursos como pude conseguí el pasaje para trasladarme a la capital y ya DIOS tenia una habitación con todo (cama con sus cobijas y cocina con sus utensilios), es donde actualmente estoy, pude enviarle dinero a mi familia durante ese tiempo de trabajo, pero ya tengo casi tres mese sin empleo ya que el proyecto se termino y el otro que supuestamente saldría no se ha dado.
Depression invades me again, together with the desire to be with my family again, I want to return to my country next to them, to complete a coworker invested three hundred dollars with me for trading, I told him what I did in December and he was enthusiastic, but I do not know what happened to me, working with someone else's money, nerves, anxiety, something that did not affect me last time I lost them, but I promised to pay them and that without me having told him to invest, he was born to give them to me, but I know what it is to put a capital of your savings and be told that you lost them, so I assumed the losses, waiting for the other contract to come out to pay him, this has me very bad without knowing what to do and soon comes the rent and the person who is helping me paid me this month, so these thoughts that corner him come back and the only thing that keeps me afloat is thinking about my wife and children what they would suffer, but every day that passes I get more depressed, I would like to return to my home, but how, with debt, without employment, without money.
La depresión me invade nuevamente aunado a eso las ganas de estar de nuevo con mi familia, quiero retornar a mi país al lado de ellos, para completar un compañero de trabajo invirtió trescientos dólares conmigo para trading, le comente lo que hice en diciembre y se entusiasmo, pero no se que me paso, el trabajar con dinero de otra persona, los nervios, la ansiedad, cosa que no me afecto la vez pasada que los perdí, pero me comprometí a pagarlos y eso sin yo haberle dicho que invirtiera, nació de él en dármelos, pero se lo que es poner un capital de tus ahorros y que te digan que los perdiste, así que asumí yo las perdidas, esperando que salga el otro contrato para pagarle, esto me tiene muy mal sin saber que hacer y pronto viene el alquiler y la persona que me esta ayudando me pago este mes, así que vuelven estos pensamientos que lo arrinconan y lo único que me mantiene a flote es pensar en mi esposa e hijos lo que sufrirían, pero cada día que pasa me deprimo mas, quisiera retorna a mi hogar, pero como, con deudas, sin empleo, ni dinero.
Thank you for reading my post, it helped me a little bit to get this out of my system.
Gracias por leer mi post, me ayudo un poquito sacar esto que llevo dentro.
Traveling away from Your home country is really difficult. I spent 2 months in a different country myself when I was younger and it was scary as hell! I was there for different reasons but I know the feeling of being somewhere else but persisting to conplete it. Hopefully you can see your family soon!
Thank you for your words.
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