I QUITE understand.
My issue is the effect of long term loneliness. Is a gradual, insidious thing that has seeped into my life and congealed like a subtle concrete. I defy it by deliberately setting up a routine that I MAKE A POINT OF following.
I do not agree with you about seeking a "medical professional".
I MUST do this since I live alone, have no family, and am now retired. And having "medical professionals" getting wind of this and pushing their way in with their toxic meds is OUT OF THE QUESTION.