Hello everyone!
I'm back, I guess. My last post was last June 6, 2022, and I think this is one of the most extended hiatus in Hive in terms of posting. I haven't really left. I just stopped posting because I lacked the drive to churn out content. It has been a grueling month for me considering that I only have Hive as my source of income. I'm just thankful for OCD and Pinmapple for trusting me with the curation duties. When crypto crashed 2 months ago, the initial reaction should be to post more to make up for the potential loss of income, but not me. I think writing and creating content was never an income generation for me. At this point, I think I'm in a much better disposition to continue with my travel series.
Is this to signify that I'll be back to posting? Most probably. Thanks to @indayclara for the push. I don't want to get punched, so I have to get this done. I have always wanted to continue with my Coron series, but the problem with having a well-received post, I tend to pressure myself to maintain the level of quality or make it better in the next post. In the end, I was paralyzed by my expectations. I think this has become a cycle and it's just this prolonged period that I get to recognize this part of my process.
Somewhere in my hiatus, I had so many intrusive thoughts. I really can't write feel-good content in those episodes because those thoughts will really bleed out in my writing. I tried before and I ended up scrapping everything. I just let those episodes pass and try to determine the cause, but I will not be explaining in detail here. I just want you to know that no one is really immune to those kinds of thoughts and feelings. Some are just very good at their coping mechanisms.
It was not easy for me considering that my creative process was greatly affected. But as I have learned in my most favorite episode of Love Death + Robots, S01 E01: Zima Blue, I should go back to the very reason why I started to blog in the first place.
I believe that we are all storytellers. And with every story, not everything is feel-good. Of course, you can always tell feel-good stories, but they won't be authentic anymore. The very reason why I started to blog is to tell my perspective about my travels. The reason why I love doing it in Hive is that I believe it can be stored for posterity.
I'm in a much better disposition now and I can just easily pick from where I left, but I felt that I owe it to my future self to have this post. This will help me in recalling that everything is not smooth sailing. The world is fast changing and no one really cares about the highs and lows of my life. Plus, I don't owe anyone an explanation of why I was not posting for 6 weeks. I just do this for myself.
This is not a rant nor a complaint. It's just me talking about my absence in the blogging world. It's not much of an explanation either because, with all the happenings in those 6 weeks that I was gone, I couldn't even remember most of the details. While some details are still vivid, I'm also not at liberty to share them. In the end, this is just a bunch of gibberish that only I can piece together. If you're reading up until this part, sorry for wasting your time.
I promise I'll post more travels from now on. 🤞
I miss you all, by the way.
- Kim
Kim Ybañez
Welcome to Kim's small corner in Hive. He is a chemical engineer by profession, but a blogger by passion. He is a wanderlust and an adventure seeker. Join his quests as he visits secluded destinations, climbs mountains, tries new and exotic dishes, and explores his country (The Philippines). He's also a trying hard photographer so stay tuned as he shares his photos and his thought process while creating them.
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Take it easy man, putting too much pressure and expectations on oneself can be very counter productive ;)
I'm trying to make it easy, but it's not always a smooth ride. It takes a lot of process and failures to say I'm not too demanding on myself anymore. But you're right. It's very counter-productive to have very high expectations.
The community here is exactly for these sort of random posts! Just log a few thoughts onto the chain here and it’s perfectly fine to me! Lol. Yeah the creative process is definitely one that’s got some quirks to it! When the mentality is on a downward spiral it’s hard to stay motivated sometimes but I think it’s also a time where you could do a bit of a shift in content. Not guaranteed it will do well but we can evolve ourselves as well as our content!
Hopefully you won’t need to take another hiatus but the good thing about the chain here is that it’s going to welcome your posts if they are once a week or once a month or once a year. Just have to do what’s best for you!
Glad this community exists! I can just rant some random things.
Yeah! It’s a lot of fun to see what people come up with that’s for sure lol
We miss you too!
But you are right… it is not always positive and feel good in life. As things happen even when traveling.
If you feel this is a turning point in your absence… go with it. You made a start again 🤓
We are looking forward to your travel posts.
I will try to post more often. Thank you so much! I'm glad there are people who are looking forward for my posts.
Have a great weekend ☀️💃🏻You are so welcome @ybanezkim26 😁👋🏻 Anytime!
I'm so sorry I always reply late. 😁
I haven’t been here the last few days due to a fly/ bad cold. But will try to catch up again and slowly recover 🤧🤧🤧🤒
Have a wonderful new week 👋🏻☀️No worries @ybanezkim26 ☺️😉 I so understand.
Yeah, high self-expectations can actually paralyze us, or at least the easiness of creating. I can understand this feeling but then I try to ignore it 😁 hahaha.
And also, a soft reminder of a friend or anyone else we trust in can help to gain again some self-confidence and move us. And it's like a first step then. Later, the next one will come and so on. We all need that spark, well, I do need it :)
I wish you a lot of inspiration and good feelings + fun while posting @ybanezkim26 😉
Thank you! I need a lot of inspiration these days. 😄
This is exactly why I cannot post too! I just say “busy ko sa work and other stuff”.
Sana all maka express jud 😭😊
It's not easy though. I mean expressing yourself here means you're exposing your vulnerabilities.
looking forward to reading them :)
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Thanks! I'm also looking forward to your crypto analyses. Great help for a newb like me.
Sometimes I have a hard time writing like you. I take a break sometimes. but I love being here.
I always love being here even if I'm just lurking. It's the posting part that I have difficulty sometimes.
It's not a waste of my time at all ... After a break of 6 months, I can relate with this "gibberish". The good thing is that the passion and purpose is picked up again. We keep moving!
That's true! We keep moving no matter what. We don't have a choice anyway.
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Hi Kim, hope all is well. Long time no chat. Just catching up and saw you were also on a hiatus.
Oh, I feel you. There comes a time when we don't want to share stories for we're aware our emotions will bleed through a post. It's great that you shared your thoughts, it gives us readers a glimpse of what you're going through. Cheers and virtual hugs
Hi Arni! Long time indeed! I forgot to tell you that we were in Bambusa Glamping Resort and then to another resort in Talisay area last June, and while we were buying barbeque, we saw you and Yohann going to Panagsama area. Anyway, just sharing. 😅
You were also on hiatus and I kept on wondering why, but then I saw your stories on IG. I know that you're enjoying your time being a "farmer". 😆
I had so much going on in the past two months that I couldn't sit down and write. Thank you! I felt validated by the comments in this post. It's okay to take a pause sometimes. The only problem is that I won't earn so that's an opportunity cost. 😁
Hope all is well with you today. You make me discover new places as I don't even know about Bambusa Glamping Resort. I had no idea you saw us and where we were going. 😄
Haha..the garden babies make me happy. I haven't been sharing much on social media either except for the veggies lol. I was in hermit mode the last few months. It's something in the air I guess. Take care and hope to see you again when you do visit Moalboal.