So much love

I look for you without looking for you,
I love you without loving you
and I miss you without having you,
that's my life,
to have you and not find you,
to have you without knowing how to love you
because you took all my nights
you took them all away.
So much love that I don't feel it,
so much pain that I don't get a lament,
that's the love I feel,
contradictory as life itself,
impossible to leave you
if you became my most beloved flower.
So much love is in your skin
that now even your scorns
taste like honey to me,
so much love is in your laughter
that if I don't have you by my side,
before the wind I evoke
the sweetness of your smile.