Wow, Hive has no chill! First Hiddenblades job to Paris, now HiveFest?!
As I was working on my photographs from Paris and was trying to fix my Wacom Tablet, I was in the midst of a conversation with customer support as there was something wrong, I got a ping from @acidyo telling me I won a ticket to HiveFest. Like, wtf is going on right now? The capacity of dopamine in my brain is overloaded as if it is trying to catch up and forgot how to stop. Seriously, I couldn't think for a few minutes and was a bit glitchin' and bitching'.
Making my way to Dymph and my friends to express myself. Sorry for spemm.
Something is HODLing me back
I want to go to HiveFest. I really do. Yet, some things are holding me back. For instance, I haven't been exactly social for the last couple of months, nor did I take care of myself (because yeah, why would you do this for yourself, right). And righttt there, imposter syndrome is popping up my sleeve, saying its greetings. This is due to personal matters that you might have read if you follow @lackofcolor on her blog, or in my blog posts where I try to be as discrete and subtle as I can regarding @lackofcolor her illness. This gives me a bit of social anxiety, not that I'm not social whenever I go somewhere, but only the thought of going somewhere I want to go to while I'm not 'at my best', can be quite a dumb fictionary troublemaker.
What are the odds?
I shouldn't care much about this, because I know I would be normal (define normal, because, jokes on you), fun, and social. Throughout my life, I had a bad habit of not being able to accept compliments or gifts. Kind of ironic, as I learned how to deal with compliments on Hive as people often responded positively whenever I shared some of my photographs. I joined Hive when I was dealing with depression and perfectionism. I really should start to accept things that are coming my way. Truth is, this last year, "my" life was all about taking care of a situation no one really wants to be in if they had a choice. But I do. And I kind of mentally prepared myself for a long run before a home run. This would include me taking some personal sacrifices, and that it most probably was going to be a bumpy ride, for as long as the ride would go. It's no biggie for me, it is a no-brainer to support someone you love. Besides, it is absolutely free.
But as a result of this 'habit', I naturally responded as if I didn't deserve the ticket, and should give it to someone who deserves it more than me. But fuck no. Not this time. Karma. It may be an ugly thing to stand up and tell yourself that you deserve something. But is it really ugly? Or can it be challenging for someone who has difficulties? I wish my brain didn't fuck me over all these times and just embrace the way how I (truly) am. Complicated, right? Overthinking? Yep.
But, some things just happen. Never did I expect to go to Paris this year, and I did not expect to win a ticket to HiveFest. When entering the contest, the only thing I thought was; let's try, and let the universe decide. Yapp, I know it sounds so cliché. Because, what are the odds... right? Well, fuck you universe, nah, love you too universe. I just finished my monthly report and started with the following sentence "I can feel things are going to change for the better", which I wrote halfway through August, and before Paris. That's some powerful manifestation.
I love you Hive. Really.
Having said and shared all of that, it is you guys who were poking me around, asking if I would go to HiveFest, telling me to go to HiveFest, to take care of myself, or that I could use a holiday of my own. I'm just gonna tag you. @celestal, @anmitsu, @karinxxl, @gtg, @trucklife-fam, @hiddenblade. I kind of tried to ignore it 6 times, or maybe more. Oh well, 7 times if you count @lackofcolor's "You should go" since I mentioned HiveFest for the first time this year. And really, I feel like these aren't just "odds", but signs for me to pack my bags and go to HiveFest next week. I can finally take a new portrait of @celestal and my friends that I can finally meet (I heard @anmitsu will be in Amsterdam and she's bringing @elliot-gardner with her, I'm gonna slap you both if we're not going to meet up, even though they won't be attending HiveFest.
How am I gonna survive HiveFest?
Well... as soon as it got through my head that I had to do some serious planning, the first person I asked was my friend @Raz0ulPlaysGames, who I, surprise surprise, onboarded on Hive recently, to ask if I could stay at his place during the event. But, he probably was sleeping or working, or both at the same time. But this morning I got a text... and WELL, SEEMS LIKE ITS LEGIT. While he has a day off on Friday, we have to plan to chill together since HiveFest has its first full agenda on that day. Oh man, I'm so pumped and grateful for HiveFest and Raoul. I'm going to get him something for his Live stream on Twitch, and some beers for his roomies as a thank you.
And... maybeee... @lackofcolor is going to come on the last day, so she -maybe- can and will meet some Hivers as well...
If you spot me, don't be afraid
While I usually am a lone cat, and I'm probably mostly shifting and drifting in my own world. It is perfectly safe to tap me on my shoulder to say hello. But prepare yourself for random social awkward conversations as I'm much better with words on paper than words coming through my mouth (when I'm excited lol).
If I spot you, should I be afraid?
I probably will bring my camera with me. How surprising huh? So... if I spot you, and I like what I see, can I snapshot you? Let me know in the comments (and please let me know if I can't), I highly appreciate someone's privacy (and anonymity), but everyone likes a good spontaneous picture of themselves, right?
WHO'S GONNA GO TO HIVEFEST?!!
Let me know if you're going! @Celestal, @karinxxl, @howo, @elliot-gardner, @anmitsu, we gonna drink a beer! Maybe I'll see @gtg, , @raz0ulplaysgames wants to tag along. Who else?
At last, I want to thank Roeland for hosting this event and the many partners -AND- people who donated to HiveFest.
Cheers,
Ruben
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Go and have some fun for the both of us!
Ahhh yeahh! Wish you could be here man, would be epic with Elliot. Someday, we gonna catch up and have a blast.
I expect some amazing photography coming out of this :D but don't forget to chill as well.
Oh man :D I just got back from Paris! Two events in two weeks lol :P
Have fun man. I really wish I was going this year.
Thanks man! Wish you would be able to go. Would've been epic to finally meet!
You so deserve this Ruben, I am really happy that you are going. And it is not an ugly thing to recognise that you deserve good things to happen to you. Looking forward to the photos xxxxxx
Thank you so much, Aish! I will try to get some cool shots! (and thanks for the kind words)
i'm still not sure if i should go or not , anxiety is a bitch , but if i do it will probably on Sept 16, there is also @brittandjosie going from Rotterdam area she also won ticket to hive fest on Ecency.
Ahh, ja man... anxiety is inderdaad een bitch. Mocht je van plan zijn om bijvoorbeeld 'alleen' (want het is niet 'alleen' voor jou) naar Amsterdam kunnen komen, laat het mij dan weten. Misschien sowieso ff handig om te connecten op Discord, voor de besluitloze toch niet, toch wel, last minute cancel of tóch maar wel trip. Niets moet, alles is (al) goed, en elke stap is er ééntje, of die nu naar voren gaat of naar achteren gaat voor jouw gevoel, want we kunnen toch alleen maar naar voren.
Het gevoel van niet durven, falen, of ergens in tekortkomen, is misschien een vet kut gevoel, maarrr ze geven ook de mogelijkheid om bewust die narigheid te ervaren om zodoende er iets van te kunnen maken, als je snapt wat ik bedoel. Het is een persoonlijk iets, en degene die jou daarop afrekenen (en het niet kunnen accepteren dat sommige dingen moeilijk zijn) zijn al bij voorbaat niet jouw tijd waard.
Komt allemaal goed! No pressure, en ik zie je graag, volgende week, of een ander keertje :)
ik zie net dat het echt in het Centrum is de Zuiderkerk, duur parkeren best parkeer plek is dan denk ik bij de Stopera.
Ik denk dat het nu nog even verstandig is omdat niet te doen, voor mij wellicht een andere keer .
Mick the 16th is the conference day so you need to find out iF there is a possibility, maybe text Roeland by dm, and i will help you with the anxiety
i don't want to gamble on trains at the moment , with all these strikes , and i know the 16th i have a car to drive that is why.
Wooow, enjoy so much buddy
Thank you thank you!
Huge congrats to you man. Sounds like you’re on a hot streak and there is more involved than just luck. You deserve to be there at HiveFest. You’re lucky to be in Europe already so it’s not quite as long of a trip. For me here in the USA, traveling all the way to Amsterdam is quite a big ask, especially in terms of cost.
I think it’s clear that you need to be there, despite other things going on in your life personally that may make you feel like you should skip.
Looking forward to seeing more great photos from you to capture much of the event since I won’t be able to make it myself.
That's just insane, right?! I know right? This can't be 'just' luck eh? :P
I'm so lucky!! I'm double lucky, I have a good old friend of mine who's gonna let me crash at his place. I'm super excited! LET'S GO!
You better groom that beard until next year's HiveFest, and hopefully, I will be able to make it as well.
Everything is lining up perfectly for you and it's cool to watch happen.
I won't forget about my beard...
Wow, congratulations! I am 100% sure you will have an amazing time. I'm not just a little bit jealous haha. I'm VERY jealous. After promising myself never to miss one, and then not having a Hivefest for years, I was really hoping to go again this year. But it's not in the books, unfortunately. But I know you will love it. @celestal is great fun to hang out with, and there are SO many more who are!
Enjoy! Looking forward to the photos.
Thank you so much! I'm sorry to hear that you won't be able to make it this year. But it is understandable with these red markets (still up tho). Oh yeah, @Celestal is an OG, we've met up @ Tallin 4 years ago and we had such a great time. We will be spending time together fo'sho.
I'll survive. I'll just sit in the corner and cry for the week hahaha.
As for @celestal, I had the honour to hang with him in Bangkok and Koh Chang (about 2 weeks) for last Steemfest, and met him the year before in Krakow. He's good people :) Give him a big hug from me when you're there.
The funny thing is, I'm also Dutch, but was living in Ireland till November last year, so it would have been more of a possibility for me if I was still in that area. Now we're in Mexico, and somehow I had hoped it'd be in these regions this year. However, the reasons for doing it in Amsterdam this year are completely understandable.
Next year, nothing or no one will stop me though hehe. Unless it's in Singapore because I won't be allowed into that country hehe.
Congrats, wish i was there too to have some great time .
Thanks!
Congratulations fella! We all love to see some good news and share your joy. I look forward to the reports :-)
Thank you! It's my first time going to HiveFest, so I'm quite curious how everything will turn out to be. ^^ Hopefully, the ventures are nice and have enough lights to take some nice shots.
Breathtaking photos!!! You always nail the sunsets Ruben. 🔥🫡
haha bro, I think you replied on the wrong post :P
Sometimes things seem like a huge problem, even tho they maybe aren't. Could be the reason why universe gives us things unexpectedly. To see how we deal with them.
I really hope you'll have an amazing time there, I know I can't wait to see your photographs. 😍
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That´s great!
Congratulations!!
📣 Congratulations on winning a ticket to HIVEFEST 2022! @rubencress🤸♂️ 💯🤸♀️
Enjoy yourself, mingle, make new acquaintances and try take lots of photographs of the events!
Hello And bonjour Ruben , congrats on winning I know the feeling and the fact that when you win its a sign that we neust attend. I know from previous meet ups and the hive fests online that we would be fools to miss out on this great opportunities given to us with winning tickets , so i am als ready to go. And love to find out what we can look forward to even more. So i will see you there and we will see about the pictures hahahahah
Nice, ik zie je dan vást @ HiveFest! Gezellie :))
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