So sorry to hear about the loss of your babies and Sheldon. Animas on the homestead become a part of our extended family. It is life on the homestead and along with that comes death and sickness. We earn to deal with it but the hurt remains lingering in the background. We have lost animals too. Would I give up homesteading because of it? Not on your life. There are far more joys than disappointments. Where else are you going to enjoy the freedoms that come with homesteading?