May I add to your great post
Do what is best for you, if you need to pause, silence, do it!
Do you need to party, sing loud songs, go do it!
And don't care what others think about you.
And what helps, too. Get or give hugs. It releases hormones that will relax you and your hugging partner. Of course it warms your heart,too!
My last thought. .. it is always hard to let loved ones go. No matter how old they got.
I send you a virtual hug💛!