Two things I have no doubt that when you tame Michelle, you will have no problems in these areas, especially number 2!
Being in toxic relationships is all about Michelle, she's basically telling you you don't deserve better; which of course you do!
She also gets you to push away the nice guys, making you think you're not good enough for them.
Start small, take a language course of one of the countries you're thinking of going to, especially if Michelle usually tells you you're no good at languages.
Good luck! I know you won't need it! :-)
Thank you so much for your support!
I was thinking about the same thing, so I must do that! Have a wonderful day and weekend @cryptogee!