"Who I was
I never bothered much about people's opinion about me. The ability not to care about what others think about me helped me a lot to focus on more important parts of their expression like useful ideas, inspirations and experiences. I found those skills truly helpful while setting my own way to survive in this crazy fast growing and over-populated world. The more people you meet, the more inspiration and opportunities you earn from it. More people you know, more problems you actually usually have. Finally I found myself in the middle of experimenting with different drugs to avoid the reality and an addiction to women to make myself happy. Yes, sex is the best antidepresivum if you haven't yet realized."
Nice text - bee keeping should be also very good in cameroon. Cameroon by itself is a little bit too dangerous for me. Before I planned to go to Guinea Bissau.
Now I am back to Europe. Its different, wouldnt say its better. But one could say, with enought money, Africa is good.
Depression furthermore frustration/ lack of satisfaction to some degree is normal for the deep minded in the western world I would say.