I'm an OVERTHINKER
My mind has all these possible interpretations for every situation. I've mastered the art of reading between the lines, sub-texts, and body language. Yes, I tend to overthink things in a whole new level. The rejections, the painful memories, some things in the past and the future. They said, overthinkers are smart people but they are difficult to understand.
Being an overthinker in a relationship is difficult. I spend every night analyzing his facial expressions when he speaks, and what his replies really meant. I keep on rewinding his body languages on my mind and give meaning to it. I tend to create unrealistic scenarios in my head that he decided that he no longer likes me. I tend to overthink his glance at other girl that maybe he found that girl more attractive than me. I worry too much when we're not talking to each other especially when it's because of a fight, I worry that maybe he's already looking for another girl to be with. I remember when I gave him a gift, he didn't smile at me then I overthought again that maybe he's not happy with it, or maybe it's not the gift that he was expecting? then I will feel bad.
The mistakes that he did in the past especially the one six months ago that was when he flirted with other girl, I still replaying it over in my head like a jukebox then I'd start crying all over again. I will argue with him again and I will bring up the past even though he apologized for it a lot times, then I will still ask myself, "What did I do wrong?" "Why did he do that to me? Am I not enough?" those things that keep on hurting me over and over.
I don't think that it is insecurity or jealousy, maybe it's because I just want to avoid getting hurt, AGAIN.
Am I wrong? Is this natural? Can someone help me?
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I feel you, you should check this out: https://saltori.com
It helped me a lot, especially the book Creating A Bug Free Mind.
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