Ah, I would love to have some kind of experience like that. (Well, unfortunately those seem to stem from a very traumatic experience or the like - so, if it's that, then no - I obviously don't! :-)
But with so much turmoil and horrible, horrible things happening to so many innocent and kind people, it's just difficult to believe, you know? But then at the same time, the idea that we're all just completely random bags of chemicals that evolved from nothing sounds just patently ridiculous, to me.
But yes, I look forward to hearing your story of what brought you closer to God in a future post.