Hi Jenna , a warm welcome to Steemit. Perhaps you have a lot of questions about Steemit and no doubt the proper answer is from reading the Official website FAQ: (https://steemit.com/faq.html).
It's really a tough life that you got. We can understand your feeling from your sharing. Just one thing, life is a choice so choose the positive energy mode everyday and don't give up.
Have fun learning and blogging your experiences in Steemit. Enjoy!