Great post man, I felt I got to connect with a bit of who you are and where you've come from. Glad you've been able to get back to a place where you can see the joy in life again.
Hopefully this community ends up being a good place for you to continue your journey forward.
Welcome.
Cheers, @raised2b. It took me quite a bit of umming and arring before I put fingers to keyboard, but it's already worth while. Amazing what we tell ourselves we can't do, and amazing how liberating it is when we realise we can!