Hello world!

Hey! Welcome to my first blog post EVER! My name is Tatiana and I am 55 years old.

I decided a few days ago that I wanted to have my own blog, and that way I could post my random thoughts about the world, my aspirations and goals, and my success (or failure!) at achieving my dreams. SOOO here it goes.

The goal that is occupying my thoughts the most right now is the goal to lose weight, so I hope no-one minds if I focus on that for, I don’t know, a few months?! But I’m getting ahead of myself…perhaps I should start at the beginning.

About a month ago I was looking at some photos of myself, and I was a LITTLE bit shocked by how much I had changed over the last few years. When I was 50 I was 140 lb’s, and I thought that was rather large. My goal then was to lose weight. But I came back from my summer holiday weighing 145, and I had a meltdown in Walmart when my son and I were shopping for a scale for our house. I was so mad at those scales!!!

I was 50 at that time, and some people would argue that I only gained weight because my metabolism slowed down, I started eating regular meals, I wasn’t walking to the bus stop anymore, etc, etc. I told myself these things for the longest time. BUT NO MORE!!! The truth is that I liked junky foods better than being healthy, and that I didn’t worry as much about my weight because, hey, I’d already snagged the man of my dreams, and now that he’d seen me at my worst and still loved me for it, I didn’t need to work so hard to impress him.

I have since realized that the way we look doesn’t only affect those around us (ie-those we are trying to impress), but it also affects US and the way we see ourselves. I know this is not a new idea, but I guess it’s one I had to come upon myself. I just needed to care about me more than what others thought about me, and I guess that’s why I don’t really mind coming on here and letting all those who actually know who I am also know how much I weigh and so on. Maybe my resolve will strengthen them as well, and we can all feel good about ourselves together!!! Awwh, so corny!

Anyway, I’m rambling, and I don’t know if that’s normal for posts, so I’ll just get to the point.

I started going to the gym about one month ago, and I’ve actually kept it up! I’m so proud of myself for that, because it’s taken a lot of willpower to go every day, but I’ve been able to see some results, so that’s helped a lot. I’ve also joined a weight-loss program, which, although rather controlling, has helped as well. They even promise that I’ll get to my coveted weight by summer I don’t deviate from The Plan. I’m trying my hardest, but sometimes I need to pinch that motivation of mine.

So here are the cold, hard facts.

One month ago I weighed in at 170.8 lb’s, and I wore size 12 pants. I’ll try to find some good before photos. As of this morning I weighed in at 161.6 lb’s, which means I’ve lost 9 lb’s!!! I’m still in size 12 pants, but that’s okay. My target weight is between 130 and 135 lb’s, and I KNOW I can do it. I’d like to be in size 8 pants, or smaller (I need some sort of buffer so I don’t hit that dreaded double-digit-size-10 again!) To lose those 9 lb’s I’ve been going to the gym every weekday (with the exception of one sinful week out East where I didn’t even watch my diet…:P) and I’ve been eating healthy foods.

Oh, here’s another goal I’ll add, because I’m just so pumped about it! I want to be a RUNNER. Or maybe just a JOGGER. I think it’s great because it’s a real-life skill (you know, like if I ever had to run for my life or something), and I find that even when I can do 1 hour on the elliptical machine, I can’t run at all, so I don’t like that because it’s not REALLY like I’m in shape. I’ve also been having a lot of dreams lately about running places, and I wake up in the morning SO confident that if I just put on my sneakers I could run across Canada! In reality, the route I run is only about 2.1 km, of which I run 1.5 km, but even Terry Fox had to start somewhere.

So I think that’s about it. I know, monster of a first entry, but you’ll find I tend to ramble. I’ll try to shorten my future posts so that they’re not such a pain to read! At the end of every post, I’ll write my current weight, workout I did that day, and I’ll even write the junk food I ate, just so that I have some accountability. Here it goes:

Weight: 161.6

Workout today: NONE…if I had have started this blog on Saturday, when I first started the idea of it, I’d have a lot more to report, but as it is, I’m starting my goal blog off with a big fat EXCUSE…which is that I’m sick. You know, sore throat, sensitive skin, achy joints, headache. Would YOU go jogging when you felt like that? Don’t answer that…

Junk food: I had pizza for dinner, as well as 3 wings. I’ll also be having some chocolate as I watch the Office, and you know what? I’m NOT going to feel bad about it, because I feel CRUMMY! (so there!)

Wings