Our life is not written, we can not say: "it was not the time" or "it was not in my destiny" to be at his side, it is simply we who create the opportunities without leaving anything to chance and you tried it so you can be calm and not think about a "maybe if" ... Sometimes we succeed in relationships and sometimes we do not. As you mentioned C'Est La Vie !!!
You're right, it was our choices that made it all come to an end, if we had really wished all that, perhaps we would have behaved differently. I do not know, but now nothing matters. I continue on my way, thank you.