I was a learner who graduated last year from one of the high schools. Last year, I started enrolling in several private and public universities. From several examinations tested, there is an English test. To be honest my English skills are still very low, as a result I did not pass the English test. I also tried to wait for the announcement from other universities.
Again and again, I was declared a failure. I began to ask where is God? I started at the lowest point when all private university enrollments began to close. My faith began to falter with God. I used to be diligent to be quiet, join the KKR, and give offerings in the church. But since the incident, I started to leave God.
I began to struggle whether I was studying at any university or taking the test next year so that the gap year (unemployed). Finally I decided to be unemployed in advance to prepare for next year.
Suddenly I was invited by my brother to go to the English village, because he is also unemployed. At first I was not interested at all because I've been there before. But I kept going even though at first I was halfhearted.
There I studied for several months and praised God my English skills improved, visible from every test score that continues to increase. For several months there, I went to church to join the TRC service. There I felt reprimanded by God through the word of God delivered.
I realized that my relationship with God was very far away. Upon returning from the place of worship, I again built a relationship to God. Finally every day I can come back for a quiet time.
Before returning home, I tried to enroll in one of the private colleges using the report card. Praise God, I passed the engineering majors (the majors I most wanted).
I am very grateful to graduate there. At first I was a little hesitant because my value is mediocre. After that, I heard there was an English test before going to college as a benchmark of value, thanks to God I can already speak English.
From my journey with God, I believe that God's plan is always the best. Sometimes God allows us to face a struggle to process our lives. Often we think God is so wicked, but believe that God always designs the best for every one of His children. Jesus bless you.
good post