You are deep Stellabelle!
I read your words and I try to immerse myself into the feeling that oozes from them and I feel a sadness that I am familiar with. Not so dark yet familiar.
I hope you found closure since Nao 's death.
Most times, certainty is not a luxury man can afford, you live your life and whichever beast emerges victorious does so.
I hope the one that is good.
♥