I've Lost My Husband, My Baby-Girl Misses Her Father or the Huge Impact that Steemit Has on My Life

in #life8 years ago (edited)

My life is not more difficult as any of yours', but as any of yours' my life has its challenges and complications.
I must say that my life is wonderful if we look at the big picture. I have a man at my side who is a truly loving husband and father, who really cares about me and our little daughter. I have a wonderful and really cute four mont old baby girl, who is the best thing that happened in my life. I have a roof above my head, we have money to make our living, a have living parents, sisters and friends. I have a lot things to appreciate and be thankful for, but do I do it?

A week ago I've discovered about Steemit and this discovery changed my life as well as changed my perception of myself, my behaviour, my values and the life I have in overall. It was my husband who told me about this platform and I quickly became very excited about it. Truth is that I am a stay-at-home-mom at the moment and now is exactly the time when I am trying to launch my blogging project willing to develop it in such a way that I will be able to make a living from it in some time. Another truth is that earlier I had absolutely no experience in blogging or writing, I even thought it was some stupid thing to do - just some unnecessary writing nobody cares about, better to do something decent and meaningful in your life.

It is a very long story and even longer journey how I got to the point where I changed my mind, here I'll just say that it took six years for me to know and understand things about myself which I do now, and the journey and understanding has just begun, there will be more discoveries, more consciousness, more understanding and cognition. Actually, I honestly do hope this journey will last all my life, so that I never stop improving myself and get to be a better person with each new day.

I must admit that Steemit revealed some ugly things about me and my family and made a past week to be a nightmare... You see, we have some debts and credits, we do need renovation at our flat and so on, that's why we need some more money - just like everyone else, almost always a way could be found how to spend "extra" money. So, when I found out about Steemit i thought "WOW! i don't need my blog anymore, I need some cool articles, win some really easy money, and off we go!". Seeing my enthusiasm my husband "got in" and joined Steemit with the same "enthusiasm".

And that is where the nightmare began! You see, my husband leaves home at 5:20 am to get to his work. And yet we started going to sleep after midnight. We tried to to do everything possible to earn some fast money on Steemit. I believe you can imagine how tired was both me and even more my husband. The only fast thing we got was irritation, disappointment and fatigue! My baby-girl felt the tension, too, and became very nervous, cried all the time un was unhappy.

When I started to realise all this I started to pay more attention to my family, but as it sometimes happens - my husband was all in Steemit, and he thought that he was paying his attention through Steemit, and that it's quite enough. He was always the person who thinks about making life comfortable for those he loves. He helps out his friends and relatives, very often even if it makes his own life more uncomfortable. He thinks about me and our daughter and he tries to work his butt of in order to get the good life to us, so that we are happy. When he saw potential in Steemit, we just actually lost a husband and a father... During the day he was at work, then coming home he spent hours and hours in Steemit - posting, voting, mining, understanding how it works, etc. Even when he tried upon my request to spend some time with us he all the time kept thinking about money and usually missed what I said or asked, or anything, so there was no way I could get through to him. I became very upset and discontent with my life.

it's here. It's quite a very long story, but the one that spoke right to my heart, so I read it from beginning to end and it changed something in me. I understood how crazy I became about making some money without great effort and how I became jealous for those who got the prize. I felt sad, because I did not. Having read that article I understood, that no one knows the whole story behind the author and what are the costs of their success.Then recently I came across an article by @rok-sivante,

I experienced a "click" that happens when you already know something in your heart, but for some reasons was not ready yet to embrace it fully, and then some final concept comes into your life, and now you understand it, feel it, live it. Now I concentrate on myself, not on those people ahead of me. Actually, there is one aspect I do acknowledge them - it's like @rok-sivante said - they are very good to learn from. Now I look on whole Steemit experience differently. I realised it to be not the fine opportunity to win money, but a great opportunity to learn - learn to write, to present myself, to discover other great authors and discover their experience. Here I can see my results and gain feedback in short term, that's very important for learning, so that I am able to adjust my learning methods.

I do hope that my husband will find some encouragement to do the same after reading this post, if he does read it. I must say that now I feel much more relieved and very happy, this is a great experience and I am glad I am going through it with honour.

I encourage you all to stop for a minute and consider if you're pursuing the right thing in your life at the moment, or maybe you've a little lost your path, just like my husband and I did. And thank you all for a lesson, experience and opportunity to rethink my life.

P.S. @rok-sivante, my heart is actually beating very fast and hands trembling. I am actually very afraid of "what people might say and think" after reading all this... Thank you for inspiration!

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thanks for sharing, it could not have been easy to write this post

Thank you, it was not. :)

steemit is the best oppurtunity i have ever seen