I have walked through the lashing rain just to have the chance to talk to someone and show my smile

in #life7 years ago (edited)

Hello steem people!

Happy February :), I hope this month started well for all of you! After this Super Blue Blood Moon last night I would expect happy things happen but instead I found out this morning that my uncle died in the night.

The people that follow me and read my posts I think they already know that I am a very  cheerul person and always try to see the bright side on everything in life but.....sometimes it's not that easy.

Two nights ago I was on the phone with a friend of mine from Ireland and he was telling me how the man who lived downstairs from him, got burned in his appartment. Eventhough Partick run as fast as he could-because he could smell fire in the air- still couldn't save him. He was already dead when he rushed in. 

He got some burns as well, thankfully not severe. Fire can so easilly trick you and burn you alive :( but he kept telling me what if I run down a couple of minutes earlier. Maybe I could have saved him! And that brought memories to me when a man died in my hands as well. 

It was a few years ago, I was walking in the street and all of a sudden a car crashed on the pavement and stopped just right next to me. I looked inside, the driver was in a way frozen, with his eyes wide open but no other sign of him having his senses. 

I froze as well for a second but then I realised that it was probably a stroke or a heart attack and if this man wouldn't have some help ASAP, would be dead within minutes!

I just openned his door and felt his pulse, it was none. So I started CPR on him, loosen his shirt and being very careful so I wouldn't move him from his position because I didn't want to cause him any further injuries.

At the same time I called for help-since people had started to come close- and call for an ambulance. The man after I started the artificial ventilation and the palpitations started having a weak pulse and his eyes moved towards me. He was trying to speak I think but he couldn't, I was talking to him. He could listen to me, I could tell because I could see he was responding to me! 

I remember crying out for help, since no ambulance was coming and no doctor was among the people,  that had been many around the car now.

After about 50 minutes of trying to bring this man back to life and no ambulance in sight,  the man died in my hands... a tear fell from his eyes just before he left his last breath on me. 

At the moment I was trying harder to bring him back to life but it was pointless! He was dead and I was angry because I couldn't help him. Because the ambulace was late, because, because so many things on my mind to be angry for!!  Later that night I couldn't stop crying and I didn't sleep until it was dawn.

I didn't know this man, he didn't know me either but I will never forget his face! I often remember him but what my friend told me the other night made me remember him again. And later on I am going to my uncle's funeral and I do not like funerals!

 That is something my friend Patrick wrote for me the other night,  after this poor man he tried to help, died in the fire. It's sad but also so beautiful and really made me feel better because it reminded me what's important for me!  

  "I have lost many people in my life, some I knew, some I didn't have the chance to, I have seen people die right before my own eyes before they even felt truly alive,  I have walked through the lashing rain just to have the chance to talk to someone and show my smile, 

And I've changed for the better to understand that me and you have the same heartbeat that beats a thing called life.  For we have been through the darkness and have come out the other side, not with tears in our eyes, but a love to shine.  

People I've loved, have no regrets, some I remember, some I forget, some of them living, some of them dead.  All I know is one main thing, no matter what, do your best, be real and keep going because life goes on and for as long as we are alive and breathing, there is hope and there will always be a way for the light to shine through "

And that's a song that has a sweet sadness in the rhythm and I can't seem to stop listening to now!

Well, that post today, it was very uncommon for me and hopefully you won't see this face of mine again. 

I hope you are all safe, stay tuned, until next time :) 




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Hola, viviste una situación especial y al igual que tu amigo aplaudo su acción mas allá del resultado, el simple gesto de ayudar basta, en algunas oportunidades son positivas en otras no, hasta al mejor medico le toca ver morir una persona, haciendo todo lo que esta a su alcance, pero no todos tenemos ese sentido de solidaridad que ustedes demostraron.

Oh thank you so much @jesusnavarrof. Even though my Spanish is not that fluent, I managed to understand what you wrote :)!!!

Yes I agree with you, in our days not many people care about our fellow citizens and I should be happy. Well I am happy that I did the best of my ability at the time, but I wish I could have saved his life.

But I know that is God that decides on who's getting a second chance and whose not!!

Thank you again :)

indeed very emotional story or stories because i read at least 3 different ones. I really don't know and don't wanna ever come face to face with a person in that state, it's really an experience everyone will remember forever. ''the good thing'' as i try to find the bright side on everything is that both you, your friend and everyone start realizes a little bit better what life is, how easily can be vanished and that we really should care about each other and stop i will say it in greek cause the word is appropriate ''φαγωνομαστε"

Yes @filotasriza3, there are things that matter and make the difference in one's life!
The secret is to focus on them and not "φαγωνόμαστε" as you say ☺!

kapispera! poli wraia istoria!

Σε ευχαριστώ πολύ, αν και είναι αρκετά στενόχωρη. Τι να πεις? Έτσι είναι η ζωή :)!

That is some experience, Alina, to be the last person that someone laid their eyes as they took their last breath. It is devastating and haunting. Sending you love.

Good morning my dear Nova :)!
Yes that was a very different experience for sure!!
It was very devastating for me at the time but I have learned to cope with it, eventhough I still feel very emotional sometimes!

Sending back much love to you xxx

Very touching story and very nice writing. Of course, I knew of the story you just wrote about, but it's always more emotional to read such story!

Thank you brother ☺, well I still find it very emotional!

this is amazing really good

Thank you for your appreciation @azizulhassan