It always hurts me when I hear such stories. I think you did the main thing - you could save yourself and remain a fine kind person. I will not say that I can imagine how difficult it was, because it is unimaginably difficult. You not only survived, but also created your own beautiful world and you give the world all your wonderful art. This is a real miracle.
I'm sorry my story hurt you @animal-shelter, I've told this story in survivor groups and codependency groups and no longer feel too much sadness. You got my thesis, I want to show people that the world and many people are horrible but that does not mean you have to live in that world. You can create your own world of art and kindness and not participate in this crazy world.
Yes, I understood you very well. I just wanted to say that it's a great pity that such things happen. I would really like to support you, because I know that it's impossible to forget. A little girl who lives inside of each of us remembers everything and she needs care and support. It is in your works. Maybe I'm wrong, but I see it so.