Lol, you're surely not the only one who does that. And I think it isn't a disorder either haha. It is good to keep a check on what you've been trying to keep up with or have been collecting in hope it will reward you at some point. I like how you write about the moment and it helps the readers imagine each detail. That's an attribute of perfect authors - they make you feel or imagine what they are.
Keeping fingers crossed to see more green than red in the future too!
It's not looking bad this morning!