Feel.
That's what I do and what I openly encourage.
Feel angry. Feel hurt. Feel fucked. Feel discouraged. Feel overwhelmed. Feel lost.
I am currently waiting for results on a cancer marker test. I already have MS. I just couldn't even believe it when they told me they now suspect I might have cancer too. I have spoken to people that offer me meaningless platitudes and it just makes me even more angry. There are some situations in which "everything happens for a reason" is not only ridiculous but entirely inappropriate.
This event turned your life upside down and it's A-OK to feel however the hell you want about it!
I really needed to read this tonight. Thank you.