No one calls...no one invites you to go out...you sit at home and basically do nothing...the few people you have any social interaction with are through a keyboard and mouse...you have nowhere to go...all you do is work and come home...you think a lot about dark thoughts...you don't even have television to turn on and make noise in the background...
I don't have to imagine it...
...I live it.
That's pretty sad maybe you should seek help or go out and make new friendships. It could be always be worse it could always get worse it could always get better!