This was a rough read. I hope you find yourself at peace, and whatever he did in his life I hope he finds peace too. If I've taken one thing away from this it's to try and be a kinder person to those in my life. Hope this comment doesn't come off as weird, it's difficult to know how to reply to something like this. All the best xx.
Yes. I am a bit sorry...was thinking of puting nsfw tag since i know this isnt the gentlest post to read and honestly i wasnt expecting any comments.
That was my whole point...I thank you on kind wishes. :)