People spend too much of their lives worrying about perceptions. How they view someone, how the person views them, and worrying about the end game. I have been one of those people for most of my life, but moving into the present moment and living day by day is probably the most freeing thing I could have ever imagined. It came at a cost and I can't pretend like I don't miss aspects of my old life. That being said, I have not doubted for one minute that I would rather be authentic and live a life of honesty and transparency since making the shift. I don't have to worry about people finding out about my insecurities or repressing emotions. I don't have to fear losing people or doubting that they ever truly knew me at all. I never really was much on judging others, but rest assured I judged myself to the point of mental exhaustion on a daily basis.
The worst part of all is the people that get left behind. It's heartbreaking to think about people on self destructive paths or sabotaging the things they want most in life. I can't judge them or fault them for being who they think they are though, hell I did it myself for thirty years and am only now grasping the true depths of my own denial. Putting on a show for people and convincing yourself that you are something that you aren't is such an addictive and self defeating reality. Living for the past or the future and having your whole life pass before your eyes to realize that what you wanted was right in front of you all along can be devastating.
The truth is that we all have to come to that realization on our own. No one can pull you out of your own self sustained false reality. I can't save you, you can't save anyone, and we are all ultimately responsible for ourselves. I just hope we can all learn to be authentic and true to ourselves and realize that those that matter don't mind and those that mind don't matter. We can only truly live by embracing and loving ourselves. No one can love us to feeling whole but ourselves. In the end, who gives a fuck about the past or the future, we only ever have right now, living in this very moment and I am going to spend every second of life I have living it the way I know I should, by being authentic. Namaste.
true words!
Thanks homie. Namaste.
It is truly a bittersweet journey to self-realization. Be present and letting go of all self-imposed limitations, ideals and learned behavior is not an easy task. But once the transformation begins life opens up to the real you, the authentic you, the you that you always have been. Your article says it all perfectly. I am glad to have read it and now have a fellow journeyman to follow here as well. Thanks for sharing @ clayboyn followed!
Thanks for the encouragement and kind words. It's truly appreciated.
Day by day living is so freeing. This is super hard to do due in society these days which is the cause of so much stress and anxiety. Thank you for freeing us today with your words.
Thanks for the encouragement and kind words.
Its so hard to stay off that destructive path. I hope one day I find the balance that is needed to do so. Its a rollercoaster. Really enjoying your posts
It's all about loving ourselves and others enough to be honest. People will accept that or not, the ones that don't manage their way out of your life quickly and often with zero explanation, but it's never worth lying to ourselves to keep fake friends. You can be whatever you believe and set your thoughts to becoming. Namaste.
It's quite fascinating once I realized that my mind can be just as positive as it was destructive.